Out of my mind...

Well... Let's see... After much complaints dat I didn't update my blog... So here I am... Well.. Thx to me workin part time d last time... I was unable to update anything here since I was too busy n my compiter ca't be on anmore... So i couldn't actually update anything here... Haha..

So... I hope everybody's doing fine in dis holiday season cuz honestly Ive been having a blast of time wif my brothers back here in Melaka... Camp n stuff... And actually I juz came back from 2 nites in a row of clubbing... Haha... (Sorry mom but I'm almost 21... XP) Counts of drinks?? 6 of us drinking 1 n a quarter of bombay sapphre n 4 pax of flaming lambroghini... Well.. 1 lambro actually n 3 911s... lol... Dat WAS crazy...

Well... Sry i dun hv any pics cuz I didn't bring my camera wif me.... So... Oh ya... Bout d camp.. Check out my facebook... Cuz seriously... I can't use words to describe it...

Ciauz guys... Merry Christmas n Happy New Year!!! All d best...

Entry no.010 by Gaijin Sichirou a.k.a Aaron Tay

What's the word 'losing' meant to you?

Some people said that you can live a life long enough to see through all the years you've been through. But sometimes what I see or hear is different. Some people do not have the leisure of living a long life to see through and even experience even growing to be an adult for once. Fortunately for my grandmother. She have lived a long life to see pass her years and the children and the grandchild that she have.

So, what does the word 'losing' meant to you deep down inside our heart? Is it materialistic or is it un-materialistic. Something like the one you loved? The one that has always been there for you every time you needed some one there to be with you? Or is it losing someone who have always and will always be with you but your just too blind with all your own desires that you don't even realize it was there all the time. You just need to look at the right place. At the right time. Or do you even need someone to tell you :"Hey, look... Don't be sad, there is someone there for you and it's *somebody* that you never knew it would be..."

So... What's the word 'losing' meant to you?

Entry no.009 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

Hmm... What title should I put anyway?

Ok mateys~ Been quite some time huh? Well, I've just started working and my computer is down... So I was busy and I was unable to online at home anyway... So I can't update my blog for like a few weeks... Haha...

Ok... As I was saying, I was working... So, haha... I'm too busy to update... Haha... Ok... Holiday just passed and only 2 weeks... Nothing much happened, just spend the whole time working... As I need money to spend and I need to pay for my fees... Thanks to a certain somebody...

Well.. Merdeka just passed by in a flash... During my uncle's birthday well... We ate.. As usual family dinner... What I didn't know was the prawn and the cake made me puked... A LARGE portion of it went into the toilet bowl anyway... Haha.... Ok.. I know it's gross... Ok.. Stop here...

Hmm... Class started well... I'm only having 2 classes anyway this semester.. So no big deal then... Anyway... I'm supposed to be asleep now... Can't sleep... haha.... See ya next post....

Entry no.008 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

Emo post....

This sure gonna be an emo post... Considering I'm bored to death at home now n emo-ing....

Well... People say that an end is a new beginning... Sometimes it is... But sometimes... To me, an end is like everything is an end... And what's worst of all is that... Time seems to stop where it ends and to make the clock and cogs to work again... Well.. It takes forever it seems...

For me to restart my life and make the cogs turning again... Seems like very hard... For a new beginning to begin for me... Unless someone has the power to smack some sense into my head... Even if it sounds very assuring and logical my head just blocks all these and just conceal myself in my own cocoon of time... Sometimes I do wish I can stop time or better... Turn around the clock and start all over again... So that any mistakes could be erased... But... If I were to do that... It'd scar the time... A time's scar occurs... Well... No one knows what would happen if it occurs... Change of every possible events that happen maybe?? Who knows?? Because the technology of time travel is not discovered... Well maybe will never be discovered... As God forbids changing of history... If I'm one of God's believer that is...

Hmm... Up till now... I still wonder why did I or rather how did I win your heart in the 1st place then?? But just to lose it and the impact of losing you is like a supernova occurred in me... I've always wanted to make amends to have you back but... Your timeline and my timeline seems to be different and out of picture... Your cogs are always moving always turning... Whereas mine just stopped there when you left me there at that time... When it started moving again.. It's a little too late already...

Well... Since that my time has start moving again... I suppose I should start move on... Dear (not you Sim Yi, I call you that cause we're very close friends), I hope that you can feel how I feel... Want you to know... Whenever you need me... I'll be there...

Entry no.007 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

Hotlink Parties @ The Mist

Elo~ It's been a few days huh... Well.. What could I do with finals coming up and all.. Gotta study like a mad... haha... oh well... This is what happens after studying like mad.. Me, Jasmine, Her bf Abee and Ben we went to The Mist last friday nite... There's somewhat a concert there by hotlink n hitz.fm!! WHooo~ Hitz.FM ROCKS!! Ok... Here's a few pics...

Me, Jasmine and Abee.... She looks like she's shocked... =.=

Ben.. Wat were u lookin' at???

Whoo~ We took pics wif Rudy of hitz.FM Top 40!! He's so funny...



This is Jerome Kugen.. Somehow reminds me of Ahmad... Hmm...

Alright... U noe wat?? I looked sleepy and I AM sleepy...


She's a singer... The one beside me... I forgot her name...XP.. But she have very powerful voice..



Alright.. This is Rachel Henry... All I can say is.. SHE'S HOT!!!


Whoo~ JJ!!! (I'm out of words...)


Me n Reshmonu~ He's as tall as me.. XD

Phew... Well... All of us got freakin high because of d music n d booze.. Haha... It's a nice place to party... But too bad we left early cuz Jasmine's tired.. (Booo~ Jasmine!!! The nite's still young!!!) Haha... Well anyway.. We had fun...

Entry no.006 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

Juz for fun~

Hmm... Finals around the corner, my mouse giving me problems, alot of things to study... I am so dead already... Haha... Well, went back to melaka last few days... Got a meeting bout a camp in templs in dec... Not sure whether it'll be approved because of the H1N1 case... But if it does approve then i gotta squeeze my brain juice for games already... If it's not then it'll b a boring year end... Haha...

Nothing much happened in melaka juz dat once i entered the state i see smog already... It's like most of melaka is enveloped in smokes... Not most... All of melaka... Missed jamming sasseions with my frens though... Haha... Hmm.... Gotta go study dy.. PAPER 2MORROW AR!!!!

Entry no. 005 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

The most meaningful gift ever...

Have one ever stop to think... When it's their birthday... Some will get a lot of gifts while some will even have non... But will they think that their gifts are meaningful??

Well.. This year.. I've got the most meaningful gift ever... Although it's just a PAPER with a DRAWING... Well... I felt that I'm thankful to have a friend like her... Thank You... Well.. No need for more words... The picture will do the talking...

A rose on white paper... All in black n white... But it's beautiful...

Entry no.004 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

Randomness~

Phew... At last my one last assignment was done yesterday morning... Finished doing it till 4am in d morning oni get to sleep.. Haha.. But then after finished my assignment think back.. Shit... Finals is around the corner.. Sigh.. No rest dy lo.. Die lo... Haha... Starting next week... No more sleep dy... GOTTA STUDY MY ASS OFF!!!

Today was a slow day... Woke up around 2pm... Supposed to meet up Sze Yen at 12.30pm... (Sry Sze Yen.. Hehe...) to pass her the copy of the video that's done.. But I didn't made it... Then Vallerie starts making noise.. She was waiting for me with my b'day present but since I woke up late I gotta hunt for it in d uni area as she juz put at a place where no one knows and make me hunt for it.. Luckily I know the clues.. Haha... (It was very easy Vallerie...) Well.. Wat's in d box??? haha... U'll get shocked... There's 3 pieces of paper... 2 was tied with purple ribbons and another one just put there... One of the papers were written happy birthday in japanese and another one was a pixeling picture of a rose... Then I realised she bought me an earring for my upper ear dat I just pierced... (Too small la Vallerie... I dun care ur putting it on for me... Haha..) Thx Vallerie..

Well... The song You are not alone by MJ is stucked in my head... Dunno why... Maybe because one of my friend asked me to play and sing it to her... But too bad dat time I dunn how to play dat song yet... (Next time ya Nicol?? Hehe...) Well.. There's SSLA meeting today... Most of it we were joking around and they planned on an appreciattion dinner dis saturday but I can't attend as I'm goin back Melaka... Haha... (Enjoy urself guys!!! Eat my part for me and Narvin, no nid ta pao back for me.. Haha..) Well... It's getting late now... 2am dy... Good nite...

Entry no.003 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

Untold feelings

Another day passed and life just moves on without mercy... Wonder if life will ever just stop on the tracks for once and let men pick up from where they left or just do it all over again for every mistakes and regrets they've ever made??? As for me... I just sometimes wish it could turn back to a period of time where I could start all over again.. Now... There's just something that's kept hidden in me that I'm afraid if I spill it out... It'll be the end already...

I just don't know how to express these feelings in me now.. All I know is that I am certain about it yet I am scared to spill my guts over it... I'm afraid after i spill it, history would repeat itself again and that's the least I've ever wanted...

I'm so confused now... I don't know what I'm feeling for you, and most importantly, what do you think of me?? All I can ask is that.. Do you hate me?? And I do not dare to ask anymore... I'm afraid that whatever I said will just mess the whole thing up...

For now I'm content with just of what we are now... The closeness we have now... I want to ask for something more but I do not dare to... Afraid that if I ask I'd lose everything.. I just... Don't want to even lose what I have now... What you are to me now...

All I can say is, dear... I just wish you know how I feel bout you now and I want to know how you bout me too... I think I've fallen for you... No... I have fallen for you... Yes.. I have...

Entry no.002 of Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou

After a long time....

Well... Dis shall be my 1st blog after such a long time of not writing any.. Haha... Well, guess I juz wanted a place to juz write out everything dat's cramped up in my heart.. Dun wanna risk it to explode... Haha...

OK.... now I should start from where... My mind's like a lagging pc now.. Haha.. As it's 3.30am... Well.. First of all I've got one last assignment to finish up and I'm out of pictures... (Kok Kian ar... Pls send me ur pics quick!!! I nid it!!!) Gonna finish it up by monday... Crap... Presentation's on the same week wednesday as well... (Now I'm DEAD....)

Then there's dis rumor circulating around... And it's spreading like wild fire... Well.. I'm sry... I noe there's a big misunderstanding here... About the msg the other nite... It juz slipped... I'm sry if it caused a misunderstanding between us... Juz hope dat it won't affect our friendship now.... Duwan things to get awkward... Haha... For those ppl out there who got nothin better to do and make assumptions out of a picture and countless personal messages about me missing someone n fallin in love pls dun la simply juz burst out ur mouth and say things... Think about other ppl's feelings as well la... Swt...

Well.. I think dat's all for now... My mind's really not working already... Haha.. Until next time....

Entry no.001 by Aaron a.k.a Gaijin Sichirou